I am cancelling the SACRED Bowl launch this year, and here is why…
Adenomyosis and somatic healing are not two things I ever expected to write about in the same sentence. But here I am, writing to you from Germany where I am completing my Rolfing certification, carrying a brand new diagnosis and the strange, still clarity that comes with it. If you are navigating adenomyosis and somatic healing is calling you, I hope what I share here lands for you too.
Today I am celebrating 🥰
Two years ago this weekend I married Ahmad. And one year ago this weekend I also married Ahmad, because we had three small but mighty ceremonies: a Nikkah in London on the 8th June 2024, a civil ceremony in October (I forgot the date of that one!), and a party and spiritual ceremony in Lisbon on the 7th June 2025.
Two years on from wedding one, and one year on from wedding three, I am celebrating this beautiful human I call my husband, and the life we are creating in tandem… Even in the moments we have argued or bickered, I have been grateful for how good we are at journeying it all together. I definitely found my person 😊 🌹
The Diagnosis: Adenomyosis and What My Body Was Carrying
As some of you may know from last month’s love letter, we had a pregnancy loss in April… and since then I have been doing some health checks to understand what my body has been moving through. This Friday, that led to a diagnosis of adenomyosis: a condition similar to endometriosis, in the walls of the uterus. I am still finding my way into understanding it, and I am not labelling it as anything: good, bad, right, wrong… Because maybe it is… and maybe it is not.
You can read more about adenomyosis here.
What I do know is that my body is asking me to slow down. Both through finally certifying as a Rolfer and through the physical and emotional changes this journey is showing me… adenomyosis and somatic healing have become the unexpected teachers of this season. Adenomyosis and somatic healing have given me a language for what my body has been trying to say.
Everything Is Perfect, Not Always Preferred
On Saturday, I hosted a Completion Circle at Firepit Art Gallery and Studios CIC, for Kamila CK, who has been hosting a contemporary art exhibition inspired by the Ensō, a practice from Zen Buddhism, where you inhale and compose yourself, and on the exhale, paint a circle in a single brushstroke. Whatever emerges is what was meant to emerge… sometimes the circle is “perfectly” circular… sometimes not… but of course, it is perfectly imperfect in that moment.
What landed for me, holding that space, was something one of my teachers says: “Everything is perfect, not always preferred.”
The circle. The diagnosis. The fact that Ella Mesma Company did not receive another Arts Council bid (our second rejection of 2026)… all of it is perfectly imperfect.
It might be “bad” as we love to define it… but it also might not be. With so much unfolding, both the absolutely brilliantly magical and the more challenging stuff… what if it is all just… perfect… exactly as it is meant to be? And the genius work of the alchemist is in the choices we make, the aligned actions we take around the perfect, sometimes messy, beautiful journey of life? This is what adenomyosis and somatic healing keeps returning me to: presence over perfection.
Why I Am Pausing the SACRED Bowl Course
From that same place of clarity, I have realised it is not true for me to launch my SACRED Bowl course this June.
I will still host the SACRED Challenge and the Clearing Sessions in October (11th October). And I am committed to all of the offerings I have already started: The Goddxx Path continues, and Embodied Alchemy will relaunch in September. But the 6-month course… with everything that is unfolding right now… I want to launch it in 2027. Adenomyosis and somatic healing have taught me this: listening to the body’s wisdom over the mind’s plans is never the wrong choice. Meanwhile I am here, aligning with my highest, most optimal and abundant timeline.
Because everything is perfect, just not always preferred 🌙
The Super New Moon in Gemini and the Medicine of Somatic Healing
This Sunday we have a Super New Moon in Gemini, which is asking us to step out of heaviness and into curiosity… beginner’s mind… innocence. It invites us to become less serious about what we cannot control, and more open to what else might be possible.
And June’s Clan Mother is Storyteller, whose medicine is this: we are not a victim of our story. We are its author. This is the heart of adenomyosis and somatic healing work: not fixing the body, but learning to listen to it, to let it lead.
Journal to JOY Invitations: Super New Moon in Gemini
Grab your Journal to JOY and reflect…
Your Pelvic Bowl
Shapeshift into the energy of your pelvic bowl… what would your bowl, and your body, love for you to know?
Slow Down
Are there any areas of your life where it is true to slow down right now?
Let Go
What or where are you trying to force or fix, that it might be time to let go?
Rewrite Your Story
Where in your life are you ready to rewrite your story from victim to creator?
Join the Magic: Ways to Begin Your Somatic Healing Journey
If your SACRED space is calling you, here are the ways you can still connect…
👑 Pelvic Clearing Session
Join the next Clearing Session here
👑 The SACRED Challenge — 6 days into your sacral power
A 6-day journey into your creative and sacral power, combining movement, somatic practices, bodywork, intuition, and pleasure work. Whether you are navigating adenomyosis and somatic healing is part of your path… or you are simply craving a deeper connection to your body and your creative fire, this is where the work begins. Available all of this month and again in October. I will be journeying alongside you this time, because in this season, I need it too.
Join the SACRED Challenge here
Here is what people have said about the SACRED Challenge so far:
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👑 6-Month SACRED Bowl Course — Waitlist for 2027
If this feels like you, add yourself to the waitlist to be the first to hear when it launches.
👑 The JOY Hour — Episode 81 with Canay Atalay
Biggest loves,
Ella xxx
